We r suckers for dogs. At any given time we have always 5 or more dogs and usually we have a female ready to have puppies. Well, this week is no different than any other time with the exception of this week we had 2 females have pups on the same day ... one had 13 and the other had 6. Out of all that we now have 1 left from the one that had 6 and 6 left from the one that had 13. Never have we had mothers not take care of their pups. they have sat on them, not fed them... I don't know what the heck is going on... We took in these 2 dogs cuz they were not being taken care of and now we have had nothing but issues from them... the one that had 6 & 1 left ended up having a c-section because 1 was so big it got stuck... maybe that's why she is not wanting any part of the mothering thing... Never the less it really sucks when you are trying to keep them alive and they keep dropping like flies....
I think I will not be so kind and take other peoples headaches anymore. I have 2 of my own dogs and I think it is time to just keep my own from now on.... My heart breaks... Just pray that the ones still alive stay alive.......TTYL
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Good Morning!!!
Holy smokes I have been browsing cyber space looking for some ideas for my page kits that I have been working so hard to get put together. I guess there are a bazillion ideas and all I have to do it to weed through and find what I am looking for... Hmmmm, right ..... Anyhow I have found some page maps that I will be using but as for actual pages... not so sure.
I am going to try to get up and use my "Cricut" to get a few things cut so I won't have to lug it around. just not sure... I am getting pretty stoked for the week end to get here. I think there are maybe 4 weeks left.
I also give myself some ideas to chose from when I am doing page kits. These are just prompts that sometimes help me figure out what I might do on some of the pages. Here's my list so far...
(1.) I am a survivor; this page I am going to tell why I am (or someone else) is a survivor /or what make me a survivor.
(2.) Something old/Something new; use a new photo/old photo also use a new tech.and incorporate an old along with it.
(3.) Favorite Room; do a L/O of your favorite room. Explain why its your favorite take a pic.
(4.)Name Acronym; using your first name or initials do a L/O with an acronym that describes yourself.
(5.) Sketch; if you are the type that draws a sketch from time to time to help with a L/O use it on a page.
(6.) Journalistic Photo; use a pic that tells the story for you. don't journal to much just let the pic. do it for you.
(7.)Challenges; find a pic. of something that was a challenge for you and do a L/O of it.
(8.) Reality TV; use the title of the show for your page. ex. Big Brother, Survivor, Am. Idol... have fun with it...
(9.) Inanimate Object; journal from the perspective of that particular object.
(10.) Flowers; use anything except pre-made flowers... stamp some flowers,doodle or anything just don't use any pre-mades.
(11.) All about you. choose topics and do a L/O include a different element on each one.
*design w/paper piercer
*fabric
*repetition(color,accent, shapes...)
*stitching
*doodles
*title on a photo
(12.) Game On; use your favorite board game. use the design of the game,colors, patterns...
(13.) Spring Ahead; do a page about what you think the future will hold.
(14.) Before/After .. before /after baby...before/after college...
(15.) Brad Design; create a design using brads to make a design. ... circle around a shape or picture on L/O.
(16.) using ink, paint or anything RED... on a L/O also try using a tool from a kitchen to do this L/O.
(17.) Roses R red, Violets R Blue, Sugar is Sweet n so r U. Using the word "Sweet" and a pic of urself do a L/O.
(18.) Chipboard; use any pc. of chip board to do this L/O just make sure it is the focal point of the page.
(19.) Current Creation; create a L/O w/something current ... news, TV, music, movie(Twilight)...
(20.) Stamp... create a L/O using stamps...
Well, that is a long list. I do this each time that I get ready for a crop. I do it so that I have ideas for my pages. Now realize this is not written in stone but I like having options that may jog something so that I can have Beautiful pages every time.
Soooooooooo, with this said... I have to get busy...
Talk later Peeps. <3
I am going to try to get up and use my "Cricut" to get a few things cut so I won't have to lug it around. just not sure... I am getting pretty stoked for the week end to get here. I think there are maybe 4 weeks left.
I also give myself some ideas to chose from when I am doing page kits. These are just prompts that sometimes help me figure out what I might do on some of the pages. Here's my list so far...
(1.) I am a survivor; this page I am going to tell why I am (or someone else) is a survivor /or what make me a survivor.
(2.) Something old/Something new; use a new photo/old photo also use a new tech.and incorporate an old along with it.
(3.) Favorite Room; do a L/O of your favorite room. Explain why its your favorite take a pic.
(4.)Name Acronym; using your first name or initials do a L/O with an acronym that describes yourself.
(5.) Sketch; if you are the type that draws a sketch from time to time to help with a L/O use it on a page.
(6.) Journalistic Photo; use a pic that tells the story for you. don't journal to much just let the pic. do it for you.
(7.)Challenges; find a pic. of something that was a challenge for you and do a L/O of it.
(8.) Reality TV; use the title of the show for your page. ex. Big Brother, Survivor, Am. Idol... have fun with it...
(9.) Inanimate Object; journal from the perspective of that particular object.
(10.) Flowers; use anything except pre-made flowers... stamp some flowers,doodle or anything just don't use any pre-mades.
(11.) All about you. choose topics and do a L/O include a different element on each one.
*design w/paper piercer
*fabric
*repetition(color,accent, shapes...)
*stitching
*doodles
*title on a photo
(12.) Game On; use your favorite board game. use the design of the game,colors, patterns...
(13.) Spring Ahead; do a page about what you think the future will hold.
(14.) Before/After .. before /after baby...before/after college...
(15.) Brad Design; create a design using brads to make a design. ... circle around a shape or picture on L/O.
(16.) using ink, paint or anything RED... on a L/O also try using a tool from a kitchen to do this L/O.
(17.) Roses R red, Violets R Blue, Sugar is Sweet n so r U. Using the word "Sweet" and a pic of urself do a L/O.
(18.) Chipboard; use any pc. of chip board to do this L/O just make sure it is the focal point of the page.
(19.) Current Creation; create a L/O w/something current ... news, TV, music, movie(Twilight)...
(20.) Stamp... create a L/O using stamps...
Well, that is a long list. I do this each time that I get ready for a crop. I do it so that I have ideas for my pages. Now realize this is not written in stone but I like having options that may jog something so that I can have Beautiful pages every time.
Soooooooooo, with this said... I have to get busy...
Talk later Peeps. <3
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Page Kits...
I am starting to think about getting ready for my "Girls Weekend' coming the first week end in Nov. I have started to plan out what I am going to bring and the pics that I will need to get developed.
I went to the Event Board this morning and found that my niece Robin has started a challenge of 30 page kits in 30 days. I am assuming she has something interesting planned for everyday in Oct. to help us get ready for the crop. She always has great thing planned and I am going to take advantage of her planning methods so that I will be prepared for my week end making the most out of every min. to get as many pages done as poss. and to have a FUN and to be very PRODUCTIVE at this crop.
With that said I also have had a very busy few days...
2 of our dogs had their puppies on the same day. Lilly had hers first and then Bella. Lilly lost 7 and 6 survived. Bella lost 3 and 3 survived. Bella ended up having to have a c-section. She had a very large pup that was stuck. She is doing ok but she is pretty sore and doesn't want to get up much. I don't blame her at all... We are feeding the pups to help the mamma's out as they recover.
So I have been a little busy with the dogs but I am getting a little done in between...
I also have been helping my son with some paperwork from his office, trying to help him get caught up with his logs. Now that is a job in itself but I figure all I have is time so I have been trying to help him some.
Well, time to get back to these puppies and then off to my scrapbooking room ... I will post a pic later to show you what my room looks like all put back together. Have a wonderful day everyone!!
I went to the Event Board this morning and found that my niece Robin has started a challenge of 30 page kits in 30 days. I am assuming she has something interesting planned for everyday in Oct. to help us get ready for the crop. She always has great thing planned and I am going to take advantage of her planning methods so that I will be prepared for my week end making the most out of every min. to get as many pages done as poss. and to have a FUN and to be very PRODUCTIVE at this crop.
With that said I also have had a very busy few days...
2 of our dogs had their puppies on the same day. Lilly had hers first and then Bella. Lilly lost 7 and 6 survived. Bella lost 3 and 3 survived. Bella ended up having to have a c-section. She had a very large pup that was stuck. She is doing ok but she is pretty sore and doesn't want to get up much. I don't blame her at all... We are feeding the pups to help the mamma's out as they recover.
So I have been a little busy with the dogs but I am getting a little done in between...
I also have been helping my son with some paperwork from his office, trying to help him get caught up with his logs. Now that is a job in itself but I figure all I have is time so I have been trying to help him some.
Well, time to get back to these puppies and then off to my scrapbooking room ... I will post a pic later to show you what my room looks like all put back together. Have a wonderful day everyone!!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
"Imagine"
Ooooo, I was so excited ...I got the newest Cricut to hit the market. The Imagine. I actually couldn't believe it was for me. I had watched the program that was on HSN for the launch of this new marvel. I was drooling over it. I tried to talk my DH into it and he said NO... I was so sad...
:(( but sorta didn't think anymore about it... the next day was my birthday and we all went to diner. My youngest son got me a bead for my Pandora bracelet, a heart that he had "Forever Love engraved on. I love it!!! Then my DH gave me an envelope with was a sheet inside the card. It was the receipt for the Cricut Imagine!!! I can tell you the entire restaurant knew I was super excited...
Well, It finally came and have I ever been having fun trying to figure it out. The options are endless on what you can do to create with this new jewel!!! I think it is new favorite toy. I have the Expression also and I think I will be keeping both of them. For awhile at least. I can't use my design studio until the updates are available but I am loving it more and more every time I use it...
Well, time for diner... gotta go get something made and then off to my scrapbooking room to create more beautiful creations.
:(( but sorta didn't think anymore about it... the next day was my birthday and we all went to diner. My youngest son got me a bead for my Pandora bracelet, a heart that he had "Forever Love engraved on. I love it!!! Then my DH gave me an envelope with was a sheet inside the card. It was the receipt for the Cricut Imagine!!! I can tell you the entire restaurant knew I was super excited...
Well, It finally came and have I ever been having fun trying to figure it out. The options are endless on what you can do to create with this new jewel!!! I think it is new favorite toy. I have the Expression also and I think I will be keeping both of them. For awhile at least. I can't use my design studio until the updates are available but I am loving it more and more every time I use it...
Well, time for diner... gotta go get something made and then off to my scrapbooking room to create more beautiful creations.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Awesome Evening!!!
Last night I took my sister in law to a cancer charity event in Saginaw. This even was sponsored by Avon. It was at a lovely little cafe. There were different stations set up and you could get a make over, a pedicure, a skin analysis or if you wanted there was blackjack and a few other game for you to try your luck at. They even had a 2011 Camaro for you to try to win.
My sister in law is a 2 time breast cancer survivor. We didn't win the car, but we really are winners we have life, love and we laugh... so in my book we are big winners!
My sister in law has been through so many horrible thing in addition to her having to battle cancer herself she lost 2 sisters, 1 brother... each to cancer and worst of all she lost her daughter this past Dec. to cervical cancer. I was with her throughout the battle to try everything to save her precious life. But as many of you know cancer really doesn't care who you are , how old you are, how much money you have... it just takes....
The thing that I learned and have taken with me is that no mater what never take anything for granted... always expect the unexpected...
I will be attending 2 other cancer events in the next few weeks. The important thing is that we must continue to fight to find a cure for this disease...
Now on to a lighter note... I think I am starting to get my mojo back... I am slowly starting to do some of my crafting.
I did a few pages and surprise I even was satisfied with the way they turned out. I have not really done anything for so long... I just have been in a rut...
I have been trying to post some of my pages but for some strange reason I can't get them to load... I think my internet server is not strong enough... and if that' the case then I am not sure what to do to get them loaded... But I will continue to try...
Well, my dear friends I must get moving... many things to do today... <3 U all...
My sister in law is a 2 time breast cancer survivor. We didn't win the car, but we really are winners we have life, love and we laugh... so in my book we are big winners!
My sister in law has been through so many horrible thing in addition to her having to battle cancer herself she lost 2 sisters, 1 brother... each to cancer and worst of all she lost her daughter this past Dec. to cervical cancer. I was with her throughout the battle to try everything to save her precious life. But as many of you know cancer really doesn't care who you are , how old you are, how much money you have... it just takes....
The thing that I learned and have taken with me is that no mater what never take anything for granted... always expect the unexpected...
I will be attending 2 other cancer events in the next few weeks. The important thing is that we must continue to fight to find a cure for this disease...
Now on to a lighter note... I think I am starting to get my mojo back... I am slowly starting to do some of my crafting.
I did a few pages and surprise I even was satisfied with the way they turned out. I have not really done anything for so long... I just have been in a rut...
I have been trying to post some of my pages but for some strange reason I can't get them to load... I think my internet server is not strong enough... and if that' the case then I am not sure what to do to get them loaded... But I will continue to try...
Well, my dear friends I must get moving... many things to do today... <3 U all...
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Good Morning...
Gosh, I got up at the crack of dawn...
I got up and did a little cleaning and then decided to do a little scrapbooking. I have a few pages stared for my Calender for next year. I surprised myself at how quickly I was able to partly complete 12 pages for it. I have it ready with photo boxes and embellies, now I need to take some pics. I think that I am going to take pictures at the beginning of each month and use them on the pages. I know it is a little different but then I will have completed a page for my scrapbook for that year. Now just to remind myself to do it... (-:
I have a few appointments today and if I get them all done will a miracle...
However I am going to have to miss out on an outing with my friends because I had an unexpected event come up. I will be looking forward to another time!!! I will make them each a gift for next time... then they will forgive me!! sneaky right... (-:
I need to get some pic of some of my pages up on my site, but for some strange reason I am having trouble getting them to load. Well, I need to get moving... TTYL
I got up and did a little cleaning and then decided to do a little scrapbooking. I have a few pages stared for my Calender for next year. I surprised myself at how quickly I was able to partly complete 12 pages for it. I have it ready with photo boxes and embellies, now I need to take some pics. I think that I am going to take pictures at the beginning of each month and use them on the pages. I know it is a little different but then I will have completed a page for my scrapbook for that year. Now just to remind myself to do it... (-:
I have a few appointments today and if I get them all done will a miracle...
However I am going to have to miss out on an outing with my friends because I had an unexpected event come up. I will be looking forward to another time!!! I will make them each a gift for next time... then they will forgive me!! sneaky right... (-:
I need to get some pic of some of my pages up on my site, but for some strange reason I am having trouble getting them to load. Well, I need to get moving... TTYL
Monday, July 12, 2010
Life is Good....
I have not blogged in a really long time... Things have been crazy bad for so long. I think I am getting better, still have a hugh hole in my heart, but I am getting better everyday! It has been 7 months today that our Lord and Savior took her home. I have such wonderful memories and I feel so very honored to have had 30 years to build a wonderful relationship with my niece. She taught me so much about life and I cherish everything she gave to me along the way to keep in my mind and heart!
I am going to be doing more things with my scrapbooking... I at least am going to try. I for sure think it is time to get busy because I am so far behind on Marisa's books!!! Time to get busy!!!!
I am so excited tomorrow I am getting my new phone!!! Evo... here I come!!! I sure hope that I can figure it out... hehehehe... I am a very spoiled girl!!! Love my DH !!!!!!!!!
Well, the rain finally got here today, sure is coming down out there, thank goodness it's not the thunder storm they said we were going to get!! However I do enjoy a good thunderstorm every now and then...
Seems like I just don't understand some ppl's wiring... why do men think they can be mean to women????? I just can't get it!!! My thoughts go out to a friend... she stays so I guess it has no bearings on me.... I worry tho....
I have a very busy day again tomorrow... things are finally picking up, no more staying in my room alone... I am ready to face my challenges and move forward and enjoy my family and cherish them and whatever they do.
I am getting ready to start out a new adventure with my son... very excited to get this up and going... Life is good....
TTYL...
I am going to be doing more things with my scrapbooking... I at least am going to try. I for sure think it is time to get busy because I am so far behind on Marisa's books!!! Time to get busy!!!!
I am so excited tomorrow I am getting my new phone!!! Evo... here I come!!! I sure hope that I can figure it out... hehehehe... I am a very spoiled girl!!! Love my DH !!!!!!!!!
Well, the rain finally got here today, sure is coming down out there, thank goodness it's not the thunder storm they said we were going to get!! However I do enjoy a good thunderstorm every now and then...
Seems like I just don't understand some ppl's wiring... why do men think they can be mean to women????? I just can't get it!!! My thoughts go out to a friend... she stays so I guess it has no bearings on me.... I worry tho....
I have a very busy day again tomorrow... things are finally picking up, no more staying in my room alone... I am ready to face my challenges and move forward and enjoy my family and cherish them and whatever they do.
I am getting ready to start out a new adventure with my son... very excited to get this up and going... Life is good....
TTYL...
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
So many changes...
Wow, 1-1/2 days of school left for this year... Seems like yesterday we were buying school clothes getting prepared for a new school year to begin and here we are ready to close out another year.
My son and his family will be moving from our house into a new home. Now mind you I am very excited for them to begin a new chapter in their lives but on the same hand I will be sad to see them go... What will I do with all of my time. I guess I will need to find some volunteer work to occupy my free time... which there is sure going to be an awful lot of that I am afraid!
I still for some strange reason can't get myself to do any scrapbooking???? I for the life of me can't figure out why...... So very behind and I have lost all interest in doing anything!!!
I am looking forward to a few things this summer, I love going camping and spending time with family... hopefully we will get a chance to do a little more this year.. Well, I am taking Marisa to see Shrek 3D so I better get moving... TTYL...
My son and his family will be moving from our house into a new home. Now mind you I am very excited for them to begin a new chapter in their lives but on the same hand I will be sad to see them go... What will I do with all of my time. I guess I will need to find some volunteer work to occupy my free time... which there is sure going to be an awful lot of that I am afraid!
I still for some strange reason can't get myself to do any scrapbooking???? I for the life of me can't figure out why...... So very behind and I have lost all interest in doing anything!!!
I am looking forward to a few things this summer, I love going camping and spending time with family... hopefully we will get a chance to do a little more this year.. Well, I am taking Marisa to see Shrek 3D so I better get moving... TTYL...
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Easter Already...
Gosh, can you even believe that Easter is already upon us... I just wonder where does all the time go??? Seems like it was just last week we were all at my Mother~In~Laws at our families Eater gathering. We always have such a nice time getting together!! This year is going to be way different because my mother-in-law is going to be out of town and everyone is going to spend Easter with our own families, however all of mine are not going to be in attendance. My oldest and his family is going to his in-laws for a gathering. So it will be my other son & his wife and my youngest son and his girlfriend. I think it will still be a nice day getting together and sharing memories together, oh and making new memories to share in the future!!! I will miss my Grand~daughter but I see her everyday, so it is only fair to share her with the rest of her family.
I think if the weather stays as it then I will have a BBQ, if not well that will be a different story. I am going to be serving Steak, Beer can Chicken, twice baked potatoes, another veg, undecided, rolls, lemon merange pie, german chocolate surprize, and I think that about covers it. I wish everyone a wonderful Easter Holiday!!!
I think if the weather stays as it then I will have a BBQ, if not well that will be a different story. I am going to be serving Steak, Beer can Chicken, twice baked potatoes, another veg, undecided, rolls, lemon merange pie, german chocolate surprize, and I think that about covers it. I wish everyone a wonderful Easter Holiday!!!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Things just aren't the same!
I have been trying like crazy to get back into the swing of scrapbooking. I sit down to start and all of my memories start flooding me... I lost my niece in Dec. and since I am having trouble getting my scrap on! I am sure she is shaking her head saying "what's wrong... why are you crying"... She always was telling me that she didn't want us to spend to much time in the mourning stage... what she didn't realize is that when you loose someone that is that close to you it takes a while... I am getting better...
The other night I sat down at my computer to check out emails and things. I came across an email from a friend asking me if I had checked out a digital scrapbooking site. Needless to say I had not. I actually wasn't even interested in even looking... well as they say curiosity kills the cat... LOL
I decided to peek to see what she was so stoked about... I finished six 2 page L/O's in just about 2-1/2 hours this morning. Now mind you I love my stuff and love the demention of a traditional page but these pages look pretty good. I am wondering what they are going to look like when I get them... I used "Studio J, it's the new digital line that Close To My Heart just launched. I liked the fact that there was many options to choose from and that everything matches. So maybe I will be able to do some hybrid pages and that way I will be able to add a little demention to these flat pages... I don't think I will ever change to just doing digital but it was very fast and VERY easy!!!
I have to get moving... it's a nice day and I want to go out and enjoy it!!!
Talk To You All Later!!!
<3 you all!!!
The other night I sat down at my computer to check out emails and things. I came across an email from a friend asking me if I had checked out a digital scrapbooking site. Needless to say I had not. I actually wasn't even interested in even looking... well as they say curiosity kills the cat... LOL
I decided to peek to see what she was so stoked about... I finished six 2 page L/O's in just about 2-1/2 hours this morning. Now mind you I love my stuff and love the demention of a traditional page but these pages look pretty good. I am wondering what they are going to look like when I get them... I used "Studio J, it's the new digital line that Close To My Heart just launched. I liked the fact that there was many options to choose from and that everything matches. So maybe I will be able to do some hybrid pages and that way I will be able to add a little demention to these flat pages... I don't think I will ever change to just doing digital but it was very fast and VERY easy!!!
I have to get moving... it's a nice day and I want to go out and enjoy it!!!
Talk To You All Later!!!
<3 you all!!!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Getting my craft on!
Gosh, sure seems like I have been away for so long! Well last night I went into my craft room and spent some time in there playing around with some of the projects that I have been filing away for some time. Anyway, I made 12 mini photo albums and 12 book marks. I am giving them to a lady in the community that puts together a care bag for people with long term illnesses. These bags are such a nice gesture, my niece got one given to her while she was battling cancer. She passed away on Dec. 12th, I know she did so enjoy the things that were in the bag. However I realized that she wanted pictures of her family and didn't have anywhere to put them, so I thought it would be nice to have a little mini album to put them in so she could look at them. Anyway, that's what I did last night. I will post them later today.
Another thing I am going to work on today is a card to give my DH for Valentines Day. I have found a card that I like on splitcoaststampers. It is an easel card. I think it's pretty cool looking. I might even make one for my daughter-in-law for her birthday. Guess I better get busy or I wont get them done. So later today I will be back to post my goodies.
Have a great day everyone!!!!
Another thing I am going to work on today is a card to give my DH for Valentines Day. I have found a card that I like on splitcoaststampers. It is an easel card. I think it's pretty cool looking. I might even make one for my daughter-in-law for her birthday. Guess I better get busy or I wont get them done. So later today I will be back to post my goodies.
Have a great day everyone!!!!
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Just sitting here... hmmmmmm
As if things couldn't get worse...
I have an injured arm (shhhh, it's broken, I don't want to say it out loud)
I decided it wasn't gonna let it hold me back, so I went to my Zumba class... big mistake!!! About 1/2 way through I felt like my arm & shoulder felt and still does feel like it's gonna explode and fall off! I wouldn't stop because I didn't want to let those young hot bodied young ladies think I couldn't make through... so foolishly I continued and probably injured it more by doing it. But I finished!!! So, for the next several days I sat around and had the heating pad on it... resting...
So. I figured that today I could go to a scrapbooking Event at one of the local churches. I made it about 5 hours, so here I am back with the heating pad resting more...
I am so disappointed because I was hoping to get caught up on some of my pages that I keep putting off. Wrong... now I am thinking it will be there when I can get it done it isn't going anywhere. Well, I am going to take nap and then I am going to get back atcha... Nighty Night...
I have an injured arm (shhhh, it's broken, I don't want to say it out loud)
I decided it wasn't gonna let it hold me back, so I went to my Zumba class... big mistake!!! About 1/2 way through I felt like my arm & shoulder felt and still does feel like it's gonna explode and fall off! I wouldn't stop because I didn't want to let those young hot bodied young ladies think I couldn't make through... so foolishly I continued and probably injured it more by doing it. But I finished!!! So, for the next several days I sat around and had the heating pad on it... resting...
So. I figured that today I could go to a scrapbooking Event at one of the local churches. I made it about 5 hours, so here I am back with the heating pad resting more...
I am so disappointed because I was hoping to get caught up on some of my pages that I keep putting off. Wrong... now I am thinking it will be there when I can get it done it isn't going anywhere. Well, I am going to take nap and then I am going to get back atcha... Nighty Night...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
A month has passed...
Ya know,
time passes but sometimes your heart stays behind.
A month has passed since the death of my precious niece Chevon.
Seems like just a few hours ago that I sat at your bedside talking to you. Little did I know it would be my last chat with you. I think I told you everything that I could think of that I wanted to say to you. There was no unturned pages.
I told you what you meant to me,
I told you how much I loved you,
I told you that I couldn't imagine life without you,
I told you how I was going to miss you every single day...
I told you so many things.
I value everything we ever did together,
the long talks that we had,
the excitement of waiting for the new Coach purses to come out,
going to get our nails ,mani's, & pedi's together.
I could go on and on about the things I miss.
I feel so honored that you chose me to be one of the ones that you wanted in your life at the end. The months of treatment after your first surgery and your time spent at CTCA and then when you came home. I was so lucky to have been able to show you what you meant to me. There was nothing I wouldn't have done for you...
I didn't want to let you go but I knew that I couldn't be selfish by wanting to keep you here when you were suffering so badly.
I know that you are painfree and happy now and that helps. I was wondering if you could find my Mom and tell her how much I Love Her & Miss Her Each & Every Single Day Also!!!!!
I will be thinking of you both and will talking to again too... Oh, I almost forgot to tell you that I saw your guys on Fri. night last week they are doing ok. Nodin misses lots but I think he's ok. He's a very wise young man, he said to me why are you crying ... you should be happy ... she's not in pain anymore...
I guess what I am really trying to tell you is that the tears are still wet on my cheeks and flow often, (I know you hated all that but I am getting better...) they don't come as often and that I just straight out miss you so much!!!! I Love You Sweetie!!!!
time passes but sometimes your heart stays behind.
A month has passed since the death of my precious niece Chevon.
Seems like just a few hours ago that I sat at your bedside talking to you. Little did I know it would be my last chat with you. I think I told you everything that I could think of that I wanted to say to you. There was no unturned pages.
I told you what you meant to me,
I told you how much I loved you,
I told you that I couldn't imagine life without you,
I told you how I was going to miss you every single day...
I told you so many things.
I value everything we ever did together,
the long talks that we had,
the excitement of waiting for the new Coach purses to come out,
going to get our nails ,mani's, & pedi's together.
I could go on and on about the things I miss.
I feel so honored that you chose me to be one of the ones that you wanted in your life at the end. The months of treatment after your first surgery and your time spent at CTCA and then when you came home. I was so lucky to have been able to show you what you meant to me. There was nothing I wouldn't have done for you...
I didn't want to let you go but I knew that I couldn't be selfish by wanting to keep you here when you were suffering so badly.
I know that you are painfree and happy now and that helps. I was wondering if you could find my Mom and tell her how much I Love Her & Miss Her Each & Every Single Day Also!!!!!
I will be thinking of you both and will talking to again too... Oh, I almost forgot to tell you that I saw your guys on Fri. night last week they are doing ok. Nodin misses lots but I think he's ok. He's a very wise young man, he said to me why are you crying ... you should be happy ... she's not in pain anymore...
I guess what I am really trying to tell you is that the tears are still wet on my cheeks and flow often, (I know you hated all that but I am getting better...) they don't come as often and that I just straight out miss you so much!!!! I Love You Sweetie!!!!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
"Can I Be Frank With You?"
This was written by my niece to help us understand her feeling about her current situation and how she coped with knowing cancer would in fact take her life one day. Enjoy her words as she would not have wanted anymore tears...
"Can I be Frank with You?"- Written by Chevon Jackson....
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Today at 11:11am
March 3, 2009 - Tuesday
"Can I be Frank with you?"......
Current mood: chipper
"Okay, but can I still be Garth?" I love that movie...
Anyways. I havent blogged in a while. Things get hectic around here, my brain doesnt function on GO all the time, I do crazy things, misplace things, lose money, say weird things.. WOW, its probably funny for those around me, but do I ever feel stupid sometimes.
But let me tell you, I have never been the religous type. but lately I find myself quietly thanking god for each day I wake up. I feel thankful to wake up healthy (well no NEW issues).. I am thankful that my kids and husband wake up and they are healthy. At the end of the day I am thankful that we made it throuh the day and nothing tramatic or life altering happened. I am thankful for every minute I get to spend with ANYONE. Not just my kids and my hubby, but EVERYONE.
I plan on seriously living each day to the fullest. Even though that may consist of not getting dressed or leaving the house, we sit and eat as a family and I try my hardest to listen to Gabe talk to me for hours.. When an opportunity comes up to take the kids someplace that might possibly make a memory, I do it. We went to the circus yesterday, and even though I wanted to scream a little everytime Gabe asked to ride the elephant (which was about 83 times in 20 minutes), and I cringed when Nodin dumped my coach purse 2 times onto the nasty dirty sticky pop spillaged floor.... We made memories. Miingan sat, sickly ( he has sinus issues) for hours waiting to watch the dirtbike riders, and Joaquin has never paid so much attention to anything in his life. And the look on Gabes goofy face riding the elephant (2 times) is priceless....
I refuse to let Cancer take over my life like it has my brain/mind. I cant stop myself from thinking about the what ifs.. and the whens... I secretly drive myself crazy daily, but its brief and I move on. In my heart I know Cancer will kill me, but I refuse to let that be before I am ready. and I will not be ready until I know that I have done all the things I need to do.
Is this blog Frank enough for you?? :)
My point is, live for NOW.. Be thankful for each and everyday, every blessing in those days... Nobody knows what the future holds, so dont wait til "later" to do anything. Do it now.. Take lots of pictures, tell lots of stories... Show someone something that they will always remember. Let your kids sleep on your bedroom floor... Just be thankful, grateful and willing to LIVE LOVE AND LAUGH.
"Can I be Frank with You?"- Written by Chevon Jackson....
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Today at 11:11am
March 3, 2009 - Tuesday
"Can I be Frank with you?"......
Current mood: chipper
"Okay, but can I still be Garth?" I love that movie...
Anyways. I havent blogged in a while. Things get hectic around here, my brain doesnt function on GO all the time, I do crazy things, misplace things, lose money, say weird things.. WOW, its probably funny for those around me, but do I ever feel stupid sometimes.
But let me tell you, I have never been the religous type. but lately I find myself quietly thanking god for each day I wake up. I feel thankful to wake up healthy (well no NEW issues).. I am thankful that my kids and husband wake up and they are healthy. At the end of the day I am thankful that we made it throuh the day and nothing tramatic or life altering happened. I am thankful for every minute I get to spend with ANYONE. Not just my kids and my hubby, but EVERYONE.
I plan on seriously living each day to the fullest. Even though that may consist of not getting dressed or leaving the house, we sit and eat as a family and I try my hardest to listen to Gabe talk to me for hours.. When an opportunity comes up to take the kids someplace that might possibly make a memory, I do it. We went to the circus yesterday, and even though I wanted to scream a little everytime Gabe asked to ride the elephant (which was about 83 times in 20 minutes), and I cringed when Nodin dumped my coach purse 2 times onto the nasty dirty sticky pop spillaged floor.... We made memories. Miingan sat, sickly ( he has sinus issues) for hours waiting to watch the dirtbike riders, and Joaquin has never paid so much attention to anything in his life. And the look on Gabes goofy face riding the elephant (2 times) is priceless....
I refuse to let Cancer take over my life like it has my brain/mind. I cant stop myself from thinking about the what ifs.. and the whens... I secretly drive myself crazy daily, but its brief and I move on. In my heart I know Cancer will kill me, but I refuse to let that be before I am ready. and I will not be ready until I know that I have done all the things I need to do.
Is this blog Frank enough for you?? :)
My point is, live for NOW.. Be thankful for each and everyday, every blessing in those days... Nobody knows what the future holds, so dont wait til "later" to do anything. Do it now.. Take lots of pictures, tell lots of stories... Show someone something that they will always remember. Let your kids sleep on your bedroom floor... Just be thankful, grateful and willing to LIVE LOVE AND LAUGH.
Today
I wrote this last night after my nieces funeral. I have spent the last year plus a little more with her during her journey trying to fight cancer. I went with Chevon & her mother many times and stayed with then in Zion. After coming home I went to sit with her several times a week. I don't know what my life is going to be like without her...
Today
Today
Yesterday at 10:47pm
Today I sent someone special to a better place, she is no longer in pain.
She was generous, kind, giving & full this sense of sarcasm that actually cracked me up. But, with this sarcasm came a sense of truth, she had a way of saying something making her point be know with or without hurting your feelings.That was one of my favorite things about her!
I can tell you that she probably was, no actually is the one person I truly felt comfortable enough to tell certain things to, she didn't judge anyone. (but, if she did you knew there was a good reason for it)
My DH will tell you that we are 2 peas in a pod. He found that we were very similar in many ways. To him he said we thought alike and that he said many times it scared him, we'd have our little inside jokes that if you were around you would think we were a little "out there" you know that unspoken kinda thing that 2 can have...
She left us 4 cherished possessions ... her young sons. They were her world. She gave them so much love, never mattered what her house looked like, she always said "who cares, they will only be little once". Now I can tell you she loved things in order but with 4-8+ kids there at any given time who had the energy to take care of them & keep the house" tip top".
She loved watching them grow, giving them many opportunities to taste life. She felt it important to have them get a chance to "experience" things, & they did just that. She made sure they had done many things before she left them.
Parties, she believed that a birthday was a national holiday or it sure seemed like it because when she threw a party it was "A Party" and everyone young and old alike had fun!
She loved to watch reality shows and I actually think that she made her schedule around the ones that she liked the best. She love 3 more than the rest, Sun. night was Amazing Race, Thurs. was Survivor & then there was Big Brother. I must confess that she turned me into a junkie also... Hmmm, never woulda thought that would happen... :)
She also had another addiction one that I also shared with her, well to amend that a little bit there was 2 addictions we shared... Coach purses & Scrapbooking. I got my first coach purse many years ago & not so long after she called me to inform me she had just bought her first of many. We couldn't wait until the new lines came out every year. Then there is scrapbooking, we both agreed that by taking lots of pictures we could preserve memories for years to come, so glad she had that addiction, because of it her young sons will forever remember her on their many vacations that they had taken together. Making a memory was so important to her especially after she found out she was sick... then she took advantage of every single chance to "make a memory" for them to cherish.
I could go on and on forever sharing about this special person it my life. She is, as I have said so many times before , to me she is my hero, she had so much courage and she knew what she was up against but never faltered and continued through her journey without any complaints.
So with all this said...
This is what she would say to me now...
What's wrong... come on no more tears,GEEZ, no more crying....
Live, Love & most of all try to Laugh along the way!!!
I LOVE YOU My SWEET ANGEL...
She was generous, kind, giving & full this sense of sarcasm that actually cracked me up. But, with this sarcasm came a sense of truth, she had a way of saying something making her point be know with or without hurting your feelings.That was one of my favorite things about her!
I can tell you that she probably was, no actually is the one person I truly felt comfortable enough to tell certain things to, she didn't judge anyone. (but, if she did you knew there was a good reason for it)
My DH will tell you that we are 2 peas in a pod. He found that we were very similar in many ways. To him he said we thought alike and that he said many times it scared him, we'd have our little inside jokes that if you were around you would think we were a little "out there" you know that unspoken kinda thing that 2 can have...
She left us 4 cherished possessions ... her young sons. They were her world. She gave them so much love, never mattered what her house looked like, she always said "who cares, they will only be little once". Now I can tell you she loved things in order but with 4-8+ kids there at any given time who had the energy to take care of them & keep the house" tip top".
She loved watching them grow, giving them many opportunities to taste life. She felt it important to have them get a chance to "experience" things, & they did just that. She made sure they had done many things before she left them.
Parties, she believed that a birthday was a national holiday or it sure seemed like it because when she threw a party it was "A Party" and everyone young and old alike had fun!
She loved to watch reality shows and I actually think that she made her schedule around the ones that she liked the best. She love 3 more than the rest, Sun. night was Amazing Race, Thurs. was Survivor & then there was Big Brother. I must confess that she turned me into a junkie also... Hmmm, never woulda thought that would happen... :)
She also had another addiction one that I also shared with her, well to amend that a little bit there was 2 addictions we shared... Coach purses & Scrapbooking. I got my first coach purse many years ago & not so long after she called me to inform me she had just bought her first of many. We couldn't wait until the new lines came out every year. Then there is scrapbooking, we both agreed that by taking lots of pictures we could preserve memories for years to come, so glad she had that addiction, because of it her young sons will forever remember her on their many vacations that they had taken together. Making a memory was so important to her especially after she found out she was sick... then she took advantage of every single chance to "make a memory" for them to cherish.
I could go on and on forever sharing about this special person it my life. She is, as I have said so many times before , to me she is my hero, she had so much courage and she knew what she was up against but never faltered and continued through her journey without any complaints.
So with all this said...
This is what she would say to me now...
What's wrong... come on no more tears,GEEZ, no more crying....
Live, Love & most of all try to Laugh along the way!!!
I LOVE YOU My SWEET ANGEL...
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Hello everyone... Gosh it has been a very long time since I have posted anything. I have been busy coming & going to Zion where my niece has been. She finally came home last Friday... The first time actually since Aug. 8th. She will be going back again the first part of Nov. to find out if the Radiation & Chemo has worked. The tumor needs to have shrank to the size of a tennis ball before the tumor can be removed. So, please say a prayer for her!!!
I went to a crop this afternoon, had a great time. I worked on a project I am doing to give to a friend. She makes "Totes" for patients diagnosed with cancer. She puts all kinds of goodies in the totes to pass the time of waiting. I decided to make bookmarks & a small photo book to be included along with the totes.
This upcoming week end I am going on a "Girls Week End Out" 12 of us are going to a cottage on a lake to do some serious scrapbooking. I have been looking forward to it for a very long time. I have many things to get finished. I also have some "Christmas" gifts that need to be made. I will post pictures of what I get finished. I will try to post again before I leave... Have a great evening!!!
I went to a crop this afternoon, had a great time. I worked on a project I am doing to give to a friend. She makes "Totes" for patients diagnosed with cancer. She puts all kinds of goodies in the totes to pass the time of waiting. I decided to make bookmarks & a small photo book to be included along with the totes.
This upcoming week end I am going on a "Girls Week End Out" 12 of us are going to a cottage on a lake to do some serious scrapbooking. I have been looking forward to it for a very long time. I have many things to get finished. I also have some "Christmas" gifts that need to be made. I will post pictures of what I get finished. I will try to post again before I leave... Have a great evening!!!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Back at the C.T.C.A.
Well, here I am back at the C.T.C.A. in Zion IL. with my niece Chevon. She has been here since Aug. 7th. She has had 4 surgeries since being here. First, she had to have a colostomy done so that she could go the bathroom. The tumor is compressing the rectum so much that she wasn't able to have a normal bowel movement. This has help her greatly but, it has not taken all of the pain away. But it is so much better than it was. Then she had to have stents put into her ureters, this was done to help her, allowing the urine to drain into the bladder, as the tumor is also pressing on the bladder and the right ureter not allowing the urine to drain. This also has created extreme pain for her. After that she had to have urostomy tubes inserted because the tumor was still compressing on the ureters and the urine still couldn't drain this created a critical fluid gain. This has caused her to gain 60+ pounds in just a few weeks. Since having the tubes placed into the kidney the fluid is slowly beginning to come off. The Dr. want her to get up and walk, this is a hard process as she has so much pain that she fights us, WE ALWAYS WIN but it is so hard, knowing she is in so much pain , but I remind myself it is for her to get better, so we keep her going. Her mother is an amazing woman!!! She has been here almost nonstop, She left only for about 30 hrs. (back to Michigan) to get her F.M.L.A. taken care of. Then she was right back to Chevon's side. She is so lucky to have her mother!!!! I have seen the true meaning of what a mother really is, it overwhelms me more that words can describe!!!!! I have been busy getting a Benefit ready. It is going to be on Sept. 13th. The expenses are climbing each day. Her mother is staying in a hotel and it is reasonable but still it costs money. She is off from work and has no income coming in and The Family has decided the best way to help is to put on this "Benefit". I have never done anything like this ever, but I am trying my hardest to help with it. There have been lots of donations so far and hope we get more. The generosity of people is heart warming! I guess there still are good people in this fast paced world we live in... So nice to know them all!!!!!!! Well, with all this said... I am going to get ready and go over to the hospital and visit for awhile. I will update more later.
Have a safe and wonderful Labor Day Weekend!!!!!
Have a safe and wonderful Labor Day Weekend!!!!!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Where does the time go? Seems like it was June and we were preparing for my 2nd sons wedding. Which, by the way went wonderfully! It was a beautiful Sunny day. Everything was perfect! Now here it is the end of Aug. and everyone is busy getting their children ready to go back to school. Myself included. Today I went with my youngest son to register for college classes at a local university. I never realized how much financial aid is avail. to minority kids. Boy, I know what I will be doing for the next few days... going to many sites to fill out the forms to see if he is a candidate for any of them. I also spent the last 12 days with my sister in law and my niece at the Cancer Center of America... my niece has neuroendicrine cervical cancer, squamous cell, small cell cancer. She had a radical hysterectomy done in Nov. of 2008 and went through chemo treatments and after finishing all of that she went back for her 3 month check and they found a very large tumor in her pelvis. She is now being treated at the Cancer Center of America. She has had 2 surgeries since going there and will be starting radiation therapy very soon. So, things have not quieted down at all... very busy trying to help get things done so I can get ready to go back to be with them at the center. Amongst all of this... I have been told I can no longer do my job. For those of you who don't know I have been off work since last April... issues with my back again. Seems like it is an ongoing battle with my back for the last 23 yrs. or so... long story short I won't be going back anytime soon. This sits very heavy on my heart as I so love my job, I have been doing it for the past 15+ years and thought I would be doing it for another 20+ yrs. Now I am going to have to keep myself busy doing things for my family and scrap booking my heart out. Well, my DH is calling me to come down stairs... bet he's hungry... LOL until next time......
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Holy Smokes, here does the time go?????
Well, the Bridal Shower is over and we have 2 weeks until the big day. My 2nd son Luis is getting married as you all know from past posts. I had never given a Bridal Shower before.
I can say it went just like clock work. I served 3 different pinwheel sammy snacks, veggie tray, a cheese ball & 3 kinds of crackers and I had a Chocolate fountain with strawberries, marshmallows, rice crispy treats, and mini cream puffs. Gosh, everything was so yummy! I didn't end up taking many leftovers home.... that's a good thing because none of us in my house needs to eat all those treats...LOL
I had shown the gifts that I had made for the winners of the games and the door prize, well everyone wanted them!!!! I guess they liked my creations. giggle...
I am working on the scrapbook for the Bride to be, when it is finished I will post for all to see.
Have a great day!!!! "GO RED WINGS"
I can say it went just like clock work. I served 3 different pinwheel sammy snacks, veggie tray, a cheese ball & 3 kinds of crackers and I had a Chocolate fountain with strawberries, marshmallows, rice crispy treats, and mini cream puffs. Gosh, everything was so yummy! I didn't end up taking many leftovers home.... that's a good thing because none of us in my house needs to eat all those treats...LOL
I had shown the gifts that I had made for the winners of the games and the door prize, well everyone wanted them!!!! I guess they liked my creations. giggle...
I am working on the scrapbook for the Bride to be, when it is finished I will post for all to see.
Have a great day!!!! "GO RED WINGS"
Saturday, May 23, 2009
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