Got my hubby home on the 4th of July. He has had very little pain and is up n around without many problems. He/we finally were told his tumor is staged at a 3. I know this is not a death sentence but the thing is... is there a cancer rem-net lingering behind waiting to strike again. Yes, I know the Dr.'s will be watching very closely so that if it does pop back out somewhere we can once again be ready to take the appropriate course of action. So I am going to be looking for a 2nd opinion on his chemo that should begin in 4 weeks or so.
Besides this things are not going very well. I can not get Nick to understand that his dad needs uninterrupted sleep and when he comes in at 3 am and is talking n laughing that is not really a very nice thing. Gloria is so mean to me n got loud with me... threw out threats and well, frankly it just wore me out. They make it sound like they do so much n we r not appreciative n we do nothing in return. Gosh, I just don't know what to say anymore. things r pretty bad here right now n I don't really know what to say or do anymore. if I could walk away from it I would... I really feel like I can do nothing right at all... there are other issues besides the noise but I try to just ignore it... but as anyone knows it builds up.
Josh, is even harsh towards me. I think they think I am in their way n I create drama in their life so I guess the answer is to keep quiet , stay out of site n do whatever my hubby needs n not get in their way when they r here... i am so sad that they feel so strongly towards me... I have tried to be a good parent but I guess they see it otherwise. I think when it is a better time I need to change things... maybe they will notice but I bet they won't even notice at all. These things are heavy on my mind and it is so hard...
Well enough about me n my problems... just needed to vent a little... it is going to be a bad day... i can feel it already........ :(
