Gosh today has been one of those days... nothing seemed to go right. Our puppy had surgery on his face last Thursday and as luck would have it a seroma formed and this morning it exploded... I was letting him out of his night kennel this morning to go outside and he stopped and poof... it sprayed all over... I can only imagine how it must have felt with the pressure built up to make that kind of mess... poor little guy. Anyway, I had to leave him at the vet again tonight... sure hope he gets better now that he's had all this going on.
To make things worse I am having a hard time this year with sinus issues. can't seem to get it to completely clear up. I feel pretty good for a few days and then BAM it comes right back... Why is that????
I decided I want to get a part time job... doing what I have no idea but something. I think there has to be something out there I can do. Just have no idea what that might be... All I know is being a scrub tech... love doing that but my back could never handle doing that again. I think it was the most fulfilling job anyone could ever have... and I was lucky to have done that job for 18 years. It seemed like I had just started when I left. I really miss being involved in some really amazing procedures over the course of those years. Truly amazing!!! I gave up so much for the job but I hope in the long run my family will know that I did it all for them. I wanted them to see that if you wanted to you could do anything in life. I for goodness sake went from being a nearly drop out to an honor student in college. I wanted them to see that if I worked hard they would understand they also could do the same thing and live a comfortable life with their families. I don't know if they see it as I had wanted them to but maybe someday they will.
I have been preparing for an upcoming crop in November. I have been selecting all the things I need for specific pages that I want to work on. I realized that I missed so many things. I pray that my sons understand why I worked so hard... it was all for them. They are my world... my husband is everything to me...I wanted to help him be able to give our sons the things we never had when we were growing up.
Gosh, I can see that this is going to be another night of no sleep. I have the hardest time closing my eyes... so afraid of the dark... seems like I would be over that by now... guess I will be for the rest of my life... LOL me of all people afraid of the dark... I bet there are some that would get a real kick out of that statement...I know I actually do. Until next time... have a great evening...
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